Monday 15 November 2010

Feeling Blue

I think it's fair to say I have been feeling a bit glum the last few days. It started when I had just finished watching the Lord Mayor Fireworks by myself on saturday.
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I love fireworks. I hadn't been to see any for ages and so off I went.
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They were really good but the thing is, they only lasted 10 minutes. Which left me in central london at 5.10pm on a sat night with nothing to do and no one to do it with. So I wondered about for a bit and had an early dinner of steak and champagne. Because I may be miserable but I know what I like.
Cow chop
So that left me fed and with nothing to do. So then a friend took pity on me and got me to go to a bar in shoredith to keep them company while they kept another friend company on a school reunion. A kind of double beard.
Bearded Pair
So I was there, drinking lemonade, watching what Temperance Brennan would have called "Hackney Hate Mating Rituals" and rapidly coming to the conclusion that this is what life holds for me.

So then I had this idea on the tube this morning.
London - Tube Map
How about a social network where you list an event you're wanting to go to by yourself and then others say whether they're going and you can arrange to meet. In a totally just-hanging-out-with-no-one-hitting-on-anyone-else kind of way. So I told the boys at work about it. Their response was to speculate the sheer quantity of lecherous apes it would attract and to suggest it be called various names which I'm not going to put here.
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Really, what this all says to me is that I am lonely but don't want to date anyone. I really don't want to do that. And in the meantime I may be a bit lonely but I'm well, fed, roofed and have enough money. So really it could be an awful lot worse.

It's still all just a bit sad making though.
Brandy the Sad Clown

8 comments:

3xEMonkey said...

I found this post through wefeelfine.org. The sad clown photo and the text in the beginning about feeling glum caught my eye.
I'm glad to have found you. I like what I've seen so far. Keep it up.
Don't be worried about being glum. We can't all be happy all the time.
-3xE

Sarah said...

I love that idea. I'm always not going to things because I have no-one to go with. I'm not single, but my boyfriend and I have very different interests.

It's a shame you're so far from me! We could go on adventures together. :-)

Heather said...

I know what yo mean. I am quite contented with all the good things I have, but a hug would be nice....

Katie said...

After year's of singledom I know exactly what you mean. I used to go to things by myself, but somehow it's not quite the same as going with someone else so you have someone to talk to about what's happening...

PURLPOWER said...

Shit. I haven't stopped by anyone's blogs for a couple of weeks and am having a big catch up and I see that you have been going through more than your fair share of crapness. Sending you best wishes and virtual hugs.

PS. Those are the best fireworks pics I've ever seen on a blog.
PPS. If you ever want to do something 'on your own' in Glasgow I would love to join you. I am always going to stuff alone too. Some of that is by choice, I have grown to dislike going to the cinema with anyone else!

Madame Mouton said...

I think it is an excellent idea! I love doing things on my own, I am a bit of a loner despite a busy family with four little children.
It might be an idea to start a group on ravelry about it and before you know it you'll be travelling the world and having good times with other people!

Jenny said...

London is the perfect city for doing things on your own! That's what I love about London. I can, and do, do things on my own all the time. Embrace the opportunity! Meanwhile, if you want to do something with others, you could join us at the GG NWktog. We missed you tonight!

Unknown said...

I love the idea of having the opportunity to go to things with people if you have nobody to go with.

There are things that I'd love to share with like minded people, but usually end up going on my own.