Can you do any pull ups?
I am not an exercise enthusiast so I guess maybe I could do one if I really had to. But the point is that you're familiar with the concept.
I'm so tired.
It's not really physical, although sleeping is a bit hit and miss and the dreams mean it's not always that restful. It's the effort of trying to stay afloat.
But at the moment I keep thinking of that Sylvia Plath quote* "I'm not waving. I'm drowning." That and the Lichtenstein picture.
To float you have to be bouyant. You have to be less dense than the stuff around you. And apparently this goes for mentally as well as physically. If you don't float then you have to pull or push yourself up and stay up. And it's tiring. But if you let go and relax down it takes an awful lot of effort to pull back up again because you're already tired from the last time you did it.
Plus you have to keep convincing yourself that it's worth the effort to pull up again.
What has unbouyed me this time? Not that it takes much.
So now I'm tired, depressed *and* bitchy.
* Oh God, she's quoting Plath. Never a good sign.
**OMG!!! And her name is Alex. He's loved up with someone with my fricking name. FFS.