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I am angry

I have been feeling angry since I wrote the divorce statement last week. It's not fading away. If anything I am more angry now.  I am aware that it also has something to do with PMT but I do feel pretty ill used at the moment. 
Writing the statement made it obvious how many chances there had been for it to be ok. I gave Pooch a second chance and he cocked up again. I said if he gave up drinking we could try again but he wouldn't consider it. Then I think about what we had planned and even though it never existed I feel like I've lost that too. The flat we had just saved enough deposit for, the cat that comes with owning your own place and not being dependant on the whims of a landlord. The shared living expenses meaning I had so much more disposable income, the child we had already started trying for. The hugs, the shared experiences, the friendship. All gone. 
I really hate dating. I hate the meat market aspect of it. But then I also hate being single. I want someone to share…